Well hello there. I feel as though I have some explaining to do to the few of you that follow my blog, as my inactivity is quite apparent. I would would like to hear what explanations I have, then feel free to stay tuned, as this will be kept short.
I took a break from weekly blogging (the roundups) for two major reasons: I was overwhelmed with school and did not have time to watch the episodes, and because I felt reader engagement was weak.
Currently, I am on spring break, but the weeks leading up to this were hell. I spent the weekends doing social things or school work, so anime fell to the wayside.
FIRST OFF, I see anime as a leisure activity that I have categorized as productive through writing. When I write about anime and people respond, it justifies my taking pleasure in anime, otherwise I would just use anime as a coping device, as I have in the past. If I don’t have a purpose for it, then my justification wanes.
Since I didn’t have time (and didn’t really want) to watch all 28 episodes in a week, I couldn’t publish the incomplete post, and writing about the episodes in the first place felt useless. Here we are now, weeks after and I am still behind by 4 episodes for some series. If I don’t have time, then anime feels forced, which defeats the point.
SECONDLY, I felt that people just didn’t care about the writing. My stats were waning and I didn’t have the time to promote my posts. As I mentioned earlier, when I feel like what I’m doing is for nothing, then I change direction.
Perhaps some of you read my last post about writing your own book. Maybe some lot of you remember a certain project that I had placed a lot of hope in, Shinbou. I have written 20+ pages since making that post. Perhaps it is a flaw in my personality that I only stick to things that I feel a connection with, or really like.
While my weekly anime posts don’t contribute anything much to the community, I feel as though this book could reach people.
Don’t take my abandonment the wrong way. While I feel the weekly roundups aren’t very good, I don’t think they are a complete failure. Looking back at my (ratchet) days on anime amino, I think the depth of my writing has evolved tremendously, and I hope to keep the good going. So while the anime posts are dying for now, they will be back in some trial form for next season.
I am also going to focus more in projects not centered around seasons. Currently I am writing an essay about Utawarerumono’s second season failure, and have more ideas circulating. I have also taken on JoJo’s Bizarre Adventures as a review project.
I will cut myself off there, as I have more or less explained my circumstances. I could elaborate on other stresses, such as choosing a college to attend, debating whether or not to take a gap year, or other things along those lines, but I will leave that to be a mystery.
I would like to thank the readers who read the entirety of my excuse, and apologize to the possible person who looked forward to my weekly roundups.